birthday

so i havent posted in a while, there isnt really much going on in my life.
today is the day that the lord made for me, as dc would like to say.
its the one day out of the year where its supposed you be about you, just ONE day
its set up to be something, but every year its the exact same thing, i get disappointed in some way by a person or an action
somebody forgets, somebody acts like a bitch, someone is too caught up in their own shit
i mean i get it everybody has their own shit but its like wtf id fucking travel across the world to do things for the people that i love, like honestly its just the little things and if the people you love cant even treat you with the same respect that you treat them with then what's the use right ? random ass people leaving comments or people calling me at 12 to wish me a happy birthday because they waited up JUST for me.
im done with everybody else, things like a birthday always show true colors, sure you care but when it's really important or when i really really needed you where were you.
its my birthday & where are you
i've surrounded myself with selfish people all my life because i like being needed, my insecurities take over my emotions and happiness because im too worried about everybody else but myself. and starting today myself is my top priority, everybody else is just liviing in my world, so sorry in advance.

this isn't about one person because so many of you only think about yourself. ironic i think not.